AUG 25, 2018: Life Update

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 Where Have I Been?
 What Have I Been Up To Lately?

 An update on my life & the unfortunate events.



   By yours truly, Karla. 






 A year ago I promised myself to remain creative.

But, a year passed, and today I find myself relearning the idea of embracing creativeness.

What happened in between today and the day I promised myself 364 days ago that resulted in me losing my liking of producing artsy content?

I had fallen into a well of emotions from built up trauma.

The universe had introduced me to the challenges that redirected my mind, body, and soul energy. Most of these issues were critical to my well-being.

Self-hatred towards myself physically enticed me to introduce myself into eating disorders and excessive alcohol use in the midst of the physical issues.

I hurt past friends emotionally unintentionally and eventually lost friends as well.

My living situation throughout the year wasn't stable because of financial deprivation and of roommate conflict.

It was tiring to balance the emotional and physical state of mind while working two jobs and going to school full-time.

I started questioning the reason for my living and found myself lost. Dwelling on the past and wanting to recreate those moments to alleviate the pain that I was dealing with through the issues I had.

These were all the reasons as to why I lost the creative flame in me.







Today, there is a push to incorporate the hobbies I loved and still love in my everyday routine.

My conceptual sketches are making a comeback.



 The importance of healthy food and fitness is present.
My strive to improve my skateboarding and blogging skills are seeping into my life.

The relationships I wanted to rebuild are in the process of becoming healthy.

I am grateful.

Life is complicated and can be rough on us sometimes.

It will get less shitty at some point, however.



From now, I will try to do the best in keeping up with this blog mainly for my last year of school. I'd like to look back at this page and see the details of my life that I forget over time.

I hope this will also work for the people that read/scroll/stalk my blog.



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